uhm... is it anyone's fault that i'm alone?...

Your Birthdate: September 16

Your birth on the 16th day of the month gives a sense of loneliness and generally the desire to work alone. You are relatively inflexible, and insist on your being independent. You need a good deal of time to rest and to meditate. You are introspective and a little stubborn. Because of this, it may not be easy for you to maintain permanent relationships, but you probably will as you are very much into home and family. This birth day inclines to interests in the technical, the scientific, and to the religious or the unknown realm of spiritual explorations. The date gives you a tendency to seek unusual approaches and makes your style seem a little different and unique to those around you. Your intuition is aided by the day of your birth, but most of your actions are bedded in logic, responsibility, and the rational approach. You may be emotional, but have a hard time expressing these emotions. Because of this, there may be some difficulty in giving or receiving affection.

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Heh, no wonder I'm still alone...

Well, today I went to Times Square to watch the worst movie I've ever watched... No, I don't mean the movie was lame... But it is FREAKY... Freaky enough to make Jun-chi puke +_+... I'm sooo not going to visit a wax museum, EVER >.<...

After the movie, I looked at Su-chin, Jun-chi, and Aiko-ran... And I looked at myself as well... I noticed how happy they are, although I might have overlooked something in Aiko's case... Here's what my observation yields:

Suyin
She looks happy with Kil, and although she denies it, the way she and Kil acted around eachother speaks volume... I hope I won't see a second Alex in her, broken-hearted a lot of time... Although I can't see Kil doing that to her... Then again, I'm no seer... I'm just Shinnoir...

Jun Jun
She's crazy, drives you crazy, yada yada yada... But she's sweet, in a retarded way... I hope she'll get hooked up with the right guy, not some hentai yaro like Aoi or who's-that-freakingly-tall-guy *got smacked by both of the guys*... If she got into the wrong bunch, I fear that she might walk the path her sister took... I'm talking general here... It could be any aspect of the path her sister took... I won't let that happen, though ^_^...

Melinda
She's a nice girl, and too bad her family fails to see that most of the time... Sure, she got someone already, but I can smell a rocky relationship from a mile away... I hope Chris is serious with her... Although I don't think she'll be single for long if Chris is foolish enough to dump her... Too bad you're a "she" XD...

You might wonder, "why the sudden observation?"... Well, basically I'm tired of being alone... Not that I can help it... A few days back, a close girl friend of mine confessed her interest in Ihab, the person I happen to have a crush on... I was horrified, of course... Devastated... But if Ihab likes her as well, it's not like I can persuade him the other way around... As if I could ever compete with a real girl... This is reality, not a Yaoi anime...

Before that, I got a pleasant suprise (is it?)... I got a message in Friendster, from an 18-year old boy (could be younger), asking if I'd like to be his boyfriend... But I can never see myself in a relationship... So I asked him to start off as a friend first... It's better to start from something harmless, right...

I don't know... So far, I can only see a long, pitch-black road of loneliness in front of me... Maybe I'll find someone who'll walk by my side... Maybe I won't at all... I guess it doesn't matter at all...